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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 29, 2014 7:49:29 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Devan was learning things, and of course Caelan on his own was trying to figure things out. His emotions and energy had to cause a lot of problems. It was some miracle for him to keep his emotions from showing up. Thanks to Devan he felt new things, so Caelan was not sure what to say. When he was let alone to his own devices it made him feel so weird. The boy felt strange but he enjoyed this, knowing he had Devan this close to him. At least Devan would end up making him feel better, way better then before. Life had been weird, and complicated enough then. He did not like any of it honestly. So why would he end up liking it now either? Yes he had Devan back, but would it go back to the way it was supposed to be. Probably not. But he also couldn't judge yet.
This whole situation had made him feel a lot better though. He could hold onto him, and he wouldn't push him off. Basically. Right? For just a simple moment this might not have mattered. But of course for Caelan it was a big change, a lot of good things happened here. And he enjoyed every single second of it. He would not end up changing his mind. What good would it do him anyway. Right? He just kept touching him, and running his fingers through the boy's hair. Devan needed him to help. He needed to get some care, some help basically. Though he'd rather not dig up his negative thoughts. They hurt enough without Devan.
"Before...I guess so. I mean, it's complicated now. Not like you pushed anything then, if it was anyone who did that it would be me." He looked away with that pout on his face. What was he supposed to say about this? He'd rather not end up thinking about that stuff. Like it'd end up helping after all, both of them had a lot of things to work on and figure out. Even if he didn't want to think about them. Which right now he didn't, because just one or two kisses didn't mean Devan still loved him. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 29, 2014 12:46:19 GMT -9
 When Caelan spoke Devan listened, though it might not have seemed like it at first considering how his lips traveled back up the boy's neck, but when Caelan said that it had been him to potentially be responsible for the pressuring Devan scoffed, and seized his actions. A small chuckle escaped him before he could lift his head and look at Caelan face to face, but that pout in the boy's features just made it worse. Why did he look so upset? There was no way Caelan had been the one to pressure him. "Yea right." He smiled, amused by the thought still. To think that Caelan might have been the 'forceful one'. It was almost entirely ridiculous to even consider. Devan knew this boy, there was just no way it was even in his personality to force himself on anyone and especially not Devan. He sat up a little straighter, his lips moving to one side more than the other in a crooked smile as he considered what he could say that'd make this person feel better. "Hey." He began, raising his right hand from the boy's shirt to his face. Devan extended his index finger and poked Caelan's turned cheek, hoping to get his attention so he'd stop looking so upset, or concerned -whatever negative thing he was feeling. "I do like you...a lot." He may have just now realized this, but that didn't mean that he wasn't taking such things seriously. He was afraid that he would hurt Cael, his best friend, if he did or said the wrong thing. Devan simply didn't want that to be taken the wrong way. "I'm just being careful, because I don't want to upset you by doing something wrong...But if you wanna force yourself on me now I might not actually mind."And...Devan was still Devan, inappropriate references and all. @ caelan || notes
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 29, 2014 14:32:52 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need It seemed that Devan had his own world, and his own plans right now. As strange as they really were. He did not entirely know what to say. But Caelan was not bothered by this, nope he just thought it'd be okay, or it'd be really fun at that. Yet he didn't know where he was going to go with this. The things he needed to explain to Devan and yet couldn't. Those were complicated enough, it truly made him feel awkward. He only rolled his eyes at Devan's reaction. Honestly he could careless about what he was thinking. Caelan had asked him out, Caelan didn't hold back when he wanted something. How many times had he pounced Devan. Too many to count since they'd been dating for awhile? Really he'd rather not dig into that stuff right now. "Tch of course, you think you know it all." He rolled his eyes, and stopped his hand as he thought about just leaning back in the bed.
He just blushed, then squirmed. Why did Devan make him feel so awkward? Well okay it wasn't a bad awkward, it was a good awkward. Basically. Right now he wondered what he was going to do. All he did was smile, and then calm down again. This would be alright, he'd be fine. He had to be. Basically. That was not something he wanted to bring up, those negative emotions were hard enough to deal with at this moment. "Y-you what? Really Devan, I mean I'm not against it! but you said it, so not gonna forget it." He rambled, it seemed he made Caelan so nervous right now. So nervous and jumpy apparently. What else could he do? This man had caught his attention in some of the weird ways. But it wasn't that bad to him. Not at all.
"Like me as what?" He had to ask, the words slipped out before he even knew what to do. How was he supposed to handle this? It just in general seemed confusing to him. But of course he'd end up learning how to handle it. Since he had handled Devan before, he liked Devan before. He loved Devan before, but whatever. Those things didn't even truly matter now did they? At this point he just went back to running his fingers through Devan's hair for a bit longer. He'd be nice to him for once. "As if I'd be upset man. seriously, Haha maybe I'll force myself on you when I feel like it which right now I don't." He smirked, and just teased him a little maybe. Really Caelan wasn't bothered by this. He actually kinda missed it?
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Post by Devan Cross on May 29, 2014 16:21:02 GMT -9
Devan lowered his hand from the boy's face, a bit taken aback by his question. Liked him as what? He wasn't even sure how to answer it, but he knew that if he didn't Caelan really would get upset. His smile faded at the thought of this, of upsetting this person, but he couldn't just lie about something as serious as this. He lowered his eyes, this time Devan being the one to get all embarrassed and flustered. "Well..I dunno maybe...maybe as more than just a friend." That was an acceptable answer right? It was at least true to how he felt, though he feared putting labels on anything. If he called Caelan a boyfriend, that could arouse certain consequences that he didn't want the boy to face. Relationships like this weren't acceptable in the hunter society, surely they'd get in trouble if their parents found out. His own parents...they might even force him to stop being friends with Cael if they knew. He lifted his eyes to Caelan, and when he did he began to pout simply because of what the boy said. He was being such a tease now and it wasn't fair. He frowned slightly, but it only made his pout all the more obvious. He still loved hearing Caelan laugh though, and couldn't even argue against his point because of it. "Fine." Devan replied childishly, plopping down on his bed and turning away from Caelan so he could at least try to tease the boy back -but in all honestly he was still sulking. He curled under the covers and lifted the blankets up over his head so he could hide, and prevent the boy from laughing or teasing him any further. He didn't mind it so much coming from Caelan, but it still made him feel utterly embarrassed. @ caelan || notes
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 29, 2014 20:01:21 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need He had to know and one couldn't blame him for thinking of asking, after all it was Caelan's right. He honestly did worry about Devan though so he'd try not to push it too much. But that wouldn't end up working so easily, it never did. And he knew this from a lot of past experiences he had with people. Mostly the Devan related ones that stupid Noble had gotten his fat nose involved in. Seriously they needed to just back off but no changing the past. It was already too late. "More then a friend, well honestly I like that...so please. Don't change your mind either." He only smiled, Caelan was trying to relax the best way he could. This whole situation had actually made him feel a lot better. But would it even end up working? Probably not. After all they weren't supposed to date. They were not allowed to. After all things were strange, the whole gay thing wasn't going to end up helping much either. Simple honestly, but Caelan wondered how they'd take being pulled apart.
This was fine for him, it felt good to know his ex boyfriend didn't mind that much. Basically, it made him feel a lot better. What was he supposed to say? How was he going to make sense of this. Eventually it'd have to end up happening at some point. Both of them needed to discuss feelings. But for now he honestly did not wish to do it. Since it was not likely to help him really. That never did. He leaned up to kiss Devan's lips again and only smiled. This was not so bad for him, it never had been. He liked to have Devan this close to him it did make him feel a whole lot better if he wanted to be honest. Which in this case yes he did. That was all really, he would not end up changing his mind either since it was not likely to change matters.
He just slipped under the covers and nuzzled up to him, this couldn't be that bad. Well actually no it wasn't. He liked being able to nuzzle up to his boyfriend. Well ex-boyfriend, he was not sure they'd ever truly get back together more or less. But still it was pretty awkward. This was one of those things, one of those things he'd rather not dig into basically. He didn't think this was so bad, he just felt really awkward, or out of place perhaps. That sounded like a better plan now didn't it? Basically. So what was he supposed to do. Caelan would just nuzzle up to him, and stay there for now. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 30, 2014 19:48:31 GMT -9
Devan felt Caelan crawl under the covers with him and instead of continuing with his huffy attitude he quickly subsided. He turned over to face the boy, and sighed as he wrapped his arms around him and pulled Caelan closer. He wondered what the boy was thinking. If he was truly okay with this, though Cael really didn't seem to mind. He rested his lips against the boy's soft locks, breathing him in once slowly as he began to shut his eyes and finally relax. It had been days since he'd slept well. With Caelan absent from their room, it had stressed him out even more than he had originally been. He was glad to have him back...more than glad. "I missed you."He was embarrassed to say these things aloud, but alas he couldn't help himself when it came to Caelan. He had to tell the truth, especially when he felt so relieved to have his best friend back. "Were you really just going to leave with out telling me?" @ caelan || notes
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 31, 2014 5:42:17 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan nuzzled up to Devan, it seemed as if he was enjoying the attention. Since his body was exhausted, and sleep sounded so good to him. Yet he'd rather stay up with Devan for a little while. Couldn't blame him for that one right? He liked to know that Devan was holding him close. This made him feel so much better. However he'd rather not dig around back into those things again. What good would it do? He didn't want to go back to the room before. After all he had been upset. And he was not going to change his mind. Since it wasn't likely to even help right now. Not at all. So honestly he just closed his eyes. He was not worried. No right now Caelan would rather just try to rest. Even if it might not do him much good. Who knew when the council might appear to erase his memories again.
"Missed you too...I'm sorry, I just...wanted to get some things straight. At least, we can be closer now." He mumbled, this wasn't that bad for them. Maybe just a little weird after all he thought Devan would never even want to be around him that way. Nor would he remember anything. So could anyone blame him on this sort of thing right now? Probably not. He shook his head, of course he couldn't leave that way. Maybe part of him wanted him to show up as he had. Anything to stop him from leaving right? It wasn't like it'd end up doing any good at this point really. So what was he supposed to do.
He was trying not to think over these things too much. Since it was not likely to do him any good either. This wasn't so bad but it was a bit annoying at that. What was he supposed to do? How could he handle this? In general it made him feel so lost, so very very lost. But what was he going to say. Right now all he'd rather do is get some sort of rest at the very least anyway. Just cuddling up to Devan sounded really good, and that was all he did. It made him feel better knowing that Devan at least knew something. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 31, 2014 19:15:36 GMT -9
Devan sighed, a little disappointed in Cael to hear that he really was going to leave, but still, he was glad to have the boy here rather than gone. He had stopped him from going out and potentially doing something stupid and he felt relieved. Devan pulled him in a bit closer, not caring if he was nearly suffocating the boy already. "Don't do that again." He replied against the crown of the boy's hair, before nuzzling against him once more. He wouldn't admit that he hadn't slept very well because Caelan wasn't around, but it went without saying regardless. Devan was exhausted, and he even sounded like it. "I prefer it when you're around...I don't know how to clean."Their room was a mess. He was close to useless without Cael, and it showed. @ caelan || notes
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Post by Caelan Rochester on Jun 1, 2014 6:11:41 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan hardly cared at this point, he was just not in the right state earlier. With Devan avoiding him any everything life had gone really bad. Not like he knew how to handle his stress either. Besides well getting drunk? Or just avoiding people forever. Go figure he was just thinking over these things. It'd probably end up helping matters for anyone at this point. He didn't even seem to care either. If this guy wanted to sorta suffocate him then well let him. It honestly didn't matter. Caelan was enjoying this feeling. Enjoying just how close this guy was to him. "Fine I won't, but if you avoid me again I'll kick your ass...when I'm awake. Too tired to move right now." He huffed, and just tried to hold back a yawn. He would have fallen asleep in this conversation if he hadn't wanted to be awake.
He just sighed, but it was a pleasant sigh that meant nothing bad. Though it probably wasn't that obvious at first. Devan and Caelan had been apart for awhile. And he hated every second of that. "I won't leave you then, but then you stop avoiding me. Please...Devan don't do that to me it's scary." He just mumbled a little bit then glanced back at him.What was he going to do here? It'd probably not even end up helping. Caelan could only keep his arms wrapped around Devan and refuse to let go of him. Since he cared about that boy way too much to even think of actually letting him go. Since it wouldn't do him much good later on. If he lost Devan he'd be alone and he would hate every second of it.
"Well I'm not cleaning tonight, I'll clean tomorrow...deal with it. You are going to help me too!" He huffed, and just pouted at him. This was so annoying, well no good. It was not that annoying. So what was he going to do right now? How could he figure this out? The room really was a mess though, so he didn't know how to handle that. Or maybe it was just because he didn't want to handle any of that right now. |
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Post by Devan Cross on Jun 2, 2014 23:28:18 GMT -9
Devan groaned, displeased with the thought of having to clean, even if he was just going to help, but if it was for Caelan then maybe he would at least try. "Fine." He muttered apprehensively in reply, but he didn't sound happy about it still. He closed his eyes and nuzzled his nose against Caelan's hair, getting comfortable one last time as he used the boy as his own personal body pillow. He was so warm..It was making him feel sleepy. "I'm sorry I scared you." Devan hadn't meant to actually go so far as to scare Caelan, but he hadn't thought the boy would act so harshly towards him simply avoiding him for a couple of days. He must really like him, but the more Devan thought about it the more it made sense. Caelan was always so talkative with him, and not nearly the same around others. He enjoyed the boy's company, but this was something he should have noticed sooner. Or perhaps he had but such memories had been...taken from him. As he thought back to the memories that were still intact, he wondered what they would have been like if he had kissed Cael sooner than later. If he'd realized he actually liked him more than just a friend. Before he knew it Devan was already starting to doze off with Caelan in his arms. Slowly his arms were going slack around the boy's waste, but he still refused to let him go even as he started to fall asleep. He had been so exhausted. Now that Caelan was here, he actually felt as if he could sleep soundly, and with that he slipped into a pleasant sleep with the absence of nightmares. Simply him and Caelan. @ caelan || hes so cute
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Post by Caelan Rochester on Jun 3, 2014 5:18:09 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan wanted to laugh a bit at the other guy groaning. This was not going to bother him. Not at all. So right now he'd rather shrug it off. Sleep sounded so much better right now, instead of digging into those not good things. Pretty much. He just felt better. Knowing that Devan didn't hate him, and better yet Devan was picking up things again. Maybe it'd never get back to where it was but he didn't care. He'd learn to figure it out in some other way. Basically. For now he'd rather not end up trying to dig through that honestly. He hated that Devan had lost his memories. But at this moment Caelan would end up finding some other way to sleep. Basically. He knew he had his friend and maybe he could call him his boyfriend again. That would make him feel a lot better. Honestly. This whole situation had made him feel a tad bit strange, but not like he was complaining. He enjoyed all of it.
"You better be...I mean, I'm sorry for leaving or well going to. But." He just stopped talking and shook his head a little. He didn't need to say that. It'd just end up making things really awkward. Which honestly he'd rather not deal with. At least not for now. So he'd figure it out later, and try not to mess up with this too much. Pretty much, the boy had a few issues on his own. And he'd rather not end up getting dragged back into this sort of thing. He was not a good boy he killed people. Even if they were vampires they still died. It was not exactly something he enjoyed or wanted to like anyway. Not right now. He just smiled and let Devan start to drift off. No doubt he seriously needed a lot of sleep. It wasn't going to bother him that much.
Now he wanted Devan to get all the memories back. He wanted to hug him tight, and keep him safe What was he going to do? But at that same moment he'd rather shrug it off. Figuring it out later might be a better idea, and yet he'd rather not dig into that. Caelan just closed his eyes and tried to rest. He was starting to fall asleep next to Devan and it honestly made him feel a lot better. He only smiled, this boy was feeling better. And right now this wasn't going to go that way. Yet what was he supposed to say? He felt that he was not able to handle the negative emotions at this point.
So he would ignore them and he'd just go to sleep. The day got better and Devan remembered a few things which was honestly better then nothing. |
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