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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 13, 2014 5:40:33 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need He was way too tired, he had actually forgotten all about his plans to shower. Oh well not like Caelan smelled or anything he didn't get vampire guts on him. He just found out dogs slobber a lot and girls are clingy. That girl had like gone out of her way to cling to his arm so he probably smelled like her a little bit. Go figure. Not exactly his best idea at this point. For a moment he wondered what he was going to do. Nah he'd just ignore it and sleep. Showers could happen later. He didn't entirely have the energy for that, basically. So what was he going to do? Caelan only looked over at Devan and rolled his eyes. "So what I'm too tired, shower tomorrow." He mumbled, with that pout and huff. Typical behavior even if he was tired right now. He wanted to just rest, though would it end up happening? Devan didn't seem that tired either.
Caelan could just sleep against Devan at least, it wasn't going to be that bad anyway. Apparently. For the moment he wondered what to say. This couldn't be that bad he was just worn out. Hunting took a lot out of people and Cae was really no different. Devan had to know that right? Didn't he. At least for now he'd end up hoping he would. But of course that might not work out so well. No doubt Devan was just tired of being stuck in this room constantly. He probably wanted to get back out and have fun. But whatever. Like it'd end up doing anything. For now they'd just get some sleep instead. Hopefully. Caelan really wanted to snuggle up to Devan once he passed out. But like that'd go anywhere. Devan might tease him for it again like he did everything else.
"Bluh...the night class is so irritating." He grumbled and wondered what he was going to do, at this moment it probably wasn't going to help him either. Basically.So right now he had a feeling this might not end up doing him any good. At this moment it was already strange enough. It made him feel so weird and sick. He just grumbled and closed his eyes resting back against the pillow. It would be alright, he was just way too tired. Sleep would take over soon enough even if Devan didn't go to bed. Caelan was good at that, passing out in the middle of a conversation. Sounded like him really. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 13, 2014 9:54:59 GMT -9
 Devan saw the roll of Caelan's eyes, though it had little effect on him. He subsided, his grin still remaining, and laid back down on the bed. He turned onto his side, facing Caelan so he could give the boy his full attention while he was still awake. The way his friend was talking he knew that he wouldn't be conscious for much longer. Devan may have wanted his company before, but he wouldn't pester the boy if he fell asleep after having a long night out in the woods. He snickered at Cael's latter comment. Looking over his features as he closed his eyes. He felt something fuzzy and warm develop in his chest. A response he had never had before, or at least not to his knowledge. Ever since they'd slept together the other day, he'd been feeling...different around Caelan. It was wrong, and the moment he realized what it was that he was feeling he wished it away immediately. However his wishes wouldn't come true despite his prayers. It wasn't right for him to have any sort of romantic feelings for his best friend, let alone a boy. His parents...Devan feared that they would abandon him if they discovered that he wasn't as straight and narrow as they'd thought. Reluctantly, he reached out his right hand. Suspecting that perhaps Caelan was already asleep, and that he'd be able to get away with just a slight touch. His index finger gently moved a few strands of Caelan's bangs aside, his thumb just faintly grazing against the boy's cheek. Devan was holding his breath the whole time without realizing it. Secretly he hoped that he was just dreaming, rather than doing something so ridiculous. Though that wasn't the case. For reasons beyond him, this felt...it felt more than okay, but why? Confusion caused his brows to furrow just slightly while he contemplated this and tried to get away with caressing the boy's familiar features. @ caelan || be happy cally. devan demands it
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 13, 2014 10:40:40 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan was not sure what to say or do, he was just too out of it to even want to deal. Things were bad enough for the boy, he lost what was important to him. How could Caelan handle that? He barely knew what to say at this point. He thought of just going to sleep but how well would that even work? Probably not that well to begin with. He didn't know what to do, his body felt tired and sick. Basically. Most likely from major over working but could it be that surprising. Not really. He really wanted to pass out, but who could blame him? His body wasn't stable right now. Caelan needed a lot of rest from work, skipping school tomorrow sounded good. But he remembered the things he had to do. What was he going to do? Did his ex-boyfriend even know what to say to him? Or did he remember? Those thoughts were hard to ignore since they kept popping right back up again.
He didn't bother to hold back now. Caelan in his tired state moved over to Devan and nuzzled up against him. This couldn't be so bad, or so he thought. But what did he even really know right? Devan was right though he was really close to passing out. Really close to falling asleep. And while he felt the fingers and moved a bit in response to them Caelan didn't say stop. He was so tired it didn't even matter. And he wasn't going to complain either. What good would any of that end up doing for him. At this point anyway. Right? He was already not awake entirely, he was clinging to Devan a little bit. Caelan's parents knew he was gay, and they didn't care. They told him about how the hunter council might feel at first. But Caelan hadn't cared then either, he just knew when to keep his hands off of Devan.
Till Devan forgot. Then he had no idea what to do. He just couldn't touch him the way he used to. So that was another thing he didn't want to think about. It'd probably just make him wake up and that was not needed at this point in time really. Now that he was thinking about it anyway. "I'm sorry Devan." He mumbled in his sleep like state. This felt awkward to him, and he barely knew where to go with it. Caelan was dreaming of when Devan got hurt, and why he got hurt. All because Caelan had admitted he liked the boy and it was wrong. That was not something he wanted to think about or deal with.
But what good would running away even do? Right now nothing because he was just dreaming. And even then when he was awake nothing would happen either. Caelan was just that fail when it came to luck about things. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 13, 2014 11:15:00 GMT -9
The feeling of Caelan's breath, and the words spoken against the base of his palm startled Devan. He retracted his hand quickly, while at the same time trying not to fall off the side of the bed just from the mere shock alone. It was embarrassing that he had such a reaction simply to Caelan's words, but he had almost been certain that the boy had passed out. "Sorry." He muttered quickly in response, not thinking through his reply before it could already escape him like an automated message. However, once he realized what Caelan had said his confusion only grew all the more. What on Earth would Caelan be sorry for? He held onto the front of his shirt with both hands, not wanting to reach out to his friend again for fear that he might still be awake. "Why are you sorry?" He asked quietly, wondering that if perhaps Caelan was asleep, he might be able to coax the boy into having an unfiltered conversation. Devan wasn't entirely blind to his friend. He knew the boy was keeping a lot to himself, and though it bothered him some, there were things that he didn't want to pry about. Though, if Caelan didn't remember this in the morning, he supposed he'd be off of the hook. "Caelan?.." Devan whispered, only to verify with himself that his friend was truly asleep. There was no way the boy would pretend to be, or at least Devan didn't think that he would. It wasn't in his friends nature to such a thing. Caelan didn't seem big on jokes. Though he waited, patiently for the boy to respond again. @ caelan || this is kind of cute already but i feel sad feels comin on
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 13, 2014 12:13:17 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan was pretty much out now, so what if he talked. The boy wouldn't know what he said in the morning, his exhaustion had won apparently. Go figure, what luck did he have? Not very much it seemed. What could he do about it? Wasn't like he could force his body out of his sleep. He didn't even react when Devan fell, Devan was such a dork. Caelan hadn't noticed though. He was just way too freaking tired to notice any of that stuff. Though who could blame him at this point. He worked really hard so Devan could just focus on his studies.Well that and healing but who needed to even know any of that at this point right? For that moment he barely noticed his friend say sorry. Or anything. Caelan's mind was so far away, he might respond to things but not very much. And vague answers were only his specialty when he was actually awake to give them.
"...you got hurt cause of me. Guess I'm stupid for still hanging onto those things." He mumbled again, the boy was almost curling into a ball because of the things he said. This had been his fault. All of it was, and what could he end up doing? This probably wasn't going to even help him at this moment. What luck did he even have apparently? Right. With a small yawn, he wondered what he was going to do. This made him feel sick to his stomach a little bit. Because in his dream he was going back through his negative emotions. All those bad things that had happened to him, and to Devan.Mostly the ones involving Devan though.
The boy wasn't keeping things to himself because he didn't know he was talking about it.So Devan was lucky for once. Caelan had no idea what he might be saying.If he was even really saying anything at all. So of course this was one of those more awkward moments, he didn't entirely know what to say about it. Or how to handle any of that either. Not right now. He'd stay asleep for awhile, but he'd eventually just stop responding to Devan so if he wanted to learn things he better start asking now.
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Post by Devan Cross on May 13, 2014 12:38:08 GMT -9
The things that Caelan said, they didn't help eliminate the confusion Devan felt. It was clear though that the boy was asleep. He wasn't responding to his name, nor was he opening his eyes to let him know that he was awake. Devan hadn't remembered when the last time it had been that Caelan spoke in his sleep, but it only made him worry. Was he working himself so hard that he was pushed to such a state of exhaustion? Devan wanted to make it up to him somehow. There was no doubt in his mind. He was going to see the headmaster tomorrow, and prove to the man that he was okay to return to his prefect duties. Even if he couldn't force Caelan to stay in their room, the least he could do was go with him. While watching his friend yawn, he thought of what to say next. He was curious what Cael meant by 'those things'. It was so vague and open ended. The boy was asleep so it might not make sense either way, but perhaps he could try to get him to clear things up. "What things?..I didn't get hurt because of you." He hated how Caelan blamed himself so much for what happened that one night. It hadn't been his friends fault, and if anyone was to blame it was him for being so careless and irresponsible. However, neither of them could have predicted that a noble would appear during their hunt that was supposed to go smoothly. They were still kids, and hadn't enough skill to truly defend themselves. Caelan was strong, but they were no match against the raw power of a noble vampire. It wasn't Caelan's fault. Devan didn't know how many times he'd need to say this. He'd thought that Cael was over it by now...but apparently he wasn't. This fact made him sad. Just wondering what thoughts might be running through his friends head while he was alone. Devan didn't want to imagine how upset he must be. @ caelan || be happy cally. devan demands it
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 13, 2014 12:50:57 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan only curled further into his ball like state. He hated the emotions he was feeling. All of them were really bad, he should have forgotten about them but like he was any good at that. He couldn't, Caelan never would be able to. It hadn't been the hunter boy's style. Warnings from his parents were starting to appear in his head again. He knew this was stupid, and if he had been awake he'd stop it. But he wasn't. So there was no stopping it. Caelan would stop talking eventually of course, for now his responses were vague and empty at that. He had no reason to openly get involved in any of this. Since it wouldn't help. It wouldn't bring Devan's memories back. Caelan wanted to retreat, his energy wanted to fade away and he just wanted to get out of this. Though it might not help. Yet he also wondered just exactly what he could end up doing at this moment in time really.
"Y-yes you did...if I didn't feel that way about you, and hadn't said that to you. They would have never attacked you." He was talking more then he did when he was awake. Go figure. It didn't entirely do him any good, at least right now anyway? Right. So what was Caelan going to say. His emotions were already awkward, he was half asleep. Life was not going to help either. And yet he didn't even know what to do. It confused him a lot more then he'd actually enjoy. Right? At least everything seemed alright like it'd get a lot better. Maybe. Yet what could he do? Caelan was already asleep, he wasn't going to end up waking up anytime soon. Not at all, his life was just not that easy and that was as simple as this would go right now. Basically. "I don't want them to take you from me again." He whimpered in his sleep and just nuzzled up against him. Would this end up helping or doing him any good either? Probably not.
Of course this would continue to be his fault. It'd always end up being his fault. What could he end up saying? It might not help but so what. He had other ideas going through his head. Not all of it was very good though. So he had to wonder what to do. Caelan was still fast asleep, just rambling on about those things in his head. Devan had no idea what Caelan felt on a daily basis, but now he was learning things. And a lot of things even if they still might seem a little vague. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 13, 2014 20:59:01 GMT -9
A light frown appeared in his features, not understanding anything that Caelan said. Though above all he worried for him. Devan realized who they might have been, even without Cael elaborating. The vampires right? It was the only thing that made some form of sense to him. After what had happened, and the trauma that had occurred for them both. Devan came to know that Caelan had been hiding far more than he'd initially let on. "I hate it when you don't tell me things." He muttered in a faint exasperated tone as he reluctantly released the front of his shirt with his right hand and reached out to pet his friends hair. They'd been together since they were children. This felt so natural though there was something even more special about their proximity. That fuzzy feeling again. It was back..but why. When Caelan mentioned his feelings Devan seized his movements and stared at him. His expression softened, though his confusion remained. Feel what? It was the ultimate question, and he had no idea what Caelan could have meant by this. What had he said to him that would make the boy think this was truly his fault? "Caelan...what are you talking about?" It was likely that his time limit on the boy's consciousness was up, but he still wanted to know what he meant. Devan couldn't remember anything they may have shared that would make this boy think that all of this was his fault. Was it that Devan had wanted to do the hunt on his own? He was at a loss. @ caelan || notes
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 13, 2014 22:08:48 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need Caelan would have felt bad if he was awake, but no he wasn't. So his opinion was not going to change. Not at all.The boy had other things going through his mind. What was he supposed to do? How could he logically explain this? He'd never remember a single thing when he woke up. So that was good for Devan. At least. He should tell him things a bit more but had Caelan ever been good at that? He kept his secrets, he always kept his secrets.That was probably safer for him to begin with. It'd be less of a hassle and get him in a lot less trouble. Mostly. But what could he end up doing, this might not be his best idea. Caelan had said things, things he wished he hadn't.But nothing could be done. He wouldn't be able to make it all go away. Not without waking up. Even then it wasn't like Devan would tell him what was said.Caelan only whimpered, his body shivering a little bit. He was so tired.
He didn't speak a word this time. No Caelan wasn't thinking about it. Since that would probably not help. He was just starting to drift back further into his sleep like state. This might not be such a good idea but who cared. Caelan moved closer to Devan, and pressed his lips against the other male's. Sleep driven things were harder to get away from at this point. Nothing else he could do about it. "That's what I'm talking about.." He mumbled as he fell against Devan's chest and seemed to fall asleep again. This would be alright, or so he thought. Yet it might not end up mattering either. At least not right anyway. Perhaps he needed to look at this a different way instead. That'd probably end up being for the best.
Right now Caelan had fallen asleep. And he wouldn't end up waking up. Simple as that really. This would be alright. For now he'd rather just attempt to get some sleep. And he was staying asleep. Basically now he needed to stick closer to Devan. His body was practically clinging to his ex boyfriend. |
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Post by Devan Cross on May 13, 2014 22:47:41 GMT -9
Caelan had gone quiet, something Devan suspected might happen, despite his own gnawing curiosity. As he watched the boy, and waited for him to say something more he released his held breath and stared down, reverting his eyes while he internally felt mild disappointment. It wasn't Caelan's fault, and he knew that by asking this boy questions in his sleep it had to be some form of harassment, but he was so desperately curious to understand what was going on with him. He didn't want Caelan to feel upset anymore, and he wanted a way to fix things without actually asking the guy when he was conscious. What are you doing? He asked himself this, questioning his own actions and wondering why he was even invading his friends privacy in this way, but it was better than rummaging through his things right? Devan would never go that far. He wasn't that disrespectful. When he felt Caelan move, and saw him inch closer he hadn't thought much of it. Though his eyes flitted upwards only once he realized that he was invading much farther into his personal space than originally expected. As the boy pressed his lips against his, Devan immediately felt a wave of heat run throughout his body. Most of the blood collected in his ears and face, though he could feel the loud thud of his heart pounding in his chest. It had almost seemed as if he'd nearly been startled to death, but this was not the same as fear. While Caelan moved away and muttered his laxidazical response, Devan remained stiff and frozen as a board. What was that?? What just happened?? His brain, there were too many things going on within himself for him to sort it all out on his own. He tried to say something, or maybe to even wake up his friend, but if he woke him up now Devan feared that HE'D be the one seen as the huge pervert. Caelan was practically naked after all, but it wasn't like Devan had done anything suspect! This wasn't his fault! The only sounds that escaped him were a strained, or rather choked, groan as he tried to contain himself -both from screaming, yelling, pushing Caelan away and or wiggling out from underneath him. He was so warm. He felt hot as hell, and having this boy on top of him just made things worse, but he didn't have the guts to push him off. So, he covered his mouth with his right hand and closed his eyes tightly. Forcing himself to breath in and out slowly so as not to wake up the boy on top of him. Though he had been a bit tired before, there was no way he was going to get any sleep now. @ caelan || yup hes a dork.
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Post by Caelan Rochester on May 14, 2014 5:43:28 GMT -9
Your
forever
is all
that
I need
Please
stay
as long
as you
need He was so tired, this had taken a weird turn. The already half asleep boy was nuzzled up against his ex, and just cuddling. Like Caelan used to. Most of the time he had this under control, but this was one of those moments where he didn't. Devan didn't remember they dated, so what was he supposed to do? Pretend none of it mattered. Maybe. Either way he'd rather shrug it off, deal with it a different way. If at all possible, so far it seemed to be. Yet if he could he'd manage to keep his mouth to himself and not deal with it. Caelan after all had pretty much just fallen back to sleep. There was no waking up for him right now. Not at all. Caelan wouldn't have told Devan a darn thing if he was awake. So violating his privacy in sleep was probably the best bet. He just seemed to be sleeping all over again without a care in the world. As if he didn't do a thing to anyone. Go figure. This had become his life hiding his feels while he was awake but jumping into them in his dreams.
Couldn't be too surprising since his boyfriend was always right next to him.There was no getting out of that really at this point anyway. He didn't like being alone. Caelan hated every second of it.That in general worried him, made him scared. If Devan never came back what could he do? It'd probably only end up making things very awkward for him. Apparently. What could he do? How was he supposed to deal with this instead. The boy had become comfortable now, he was sleeping and he felt fine. That was all that mattered right now anyway. Or at least so he thought. But what would his friend say? What would he do? Well only tomorrow would tell, Caelan would have very little memory. Asking him such things when he was asleep, just why? It almost didn't seem to make very much sense at this moment.
His body hurt, the working on school stuff had made his body hurt and then hunting. It was a hard time but he had his reasons. Devan never worked because of how hurt he was. More or less, this was not something he wanted to deal with or get dragged into. Caelan just gripped Devan tighter breathing slowly, and staying asleep. He didn't notice a darn thing. Not how stiff Devan was or anything. It all went right over his head because of how tired he was at this point. He didn't know what he was doing, really not at all. How was Caelan supposed to forget things if his sleeping mind wouldn't let him.Go figure he didn't get a lot of luck in things. But for now he also wished to stay resting. That sounded so good right now.
He'd just stay asleep for awhile now. Nothing about Devan or the scene around him had even appeared in his head that was all. Devan should probably get some sleep or at least pretend enough so Caelan didn't notice. |
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