If we had kids [Caelan]

Caelan had to deal with toddlers all day and it made him really exhausted. He truly did hate every single second of that, but he loved his kids. That would never change. He might get a bit frustrated with them. But this didn't matter. He felt tired and yet he'd rather not end up digging into it. He had flopped into bed hours after taking care of the children. They were making him feel really weird. Caelan almost sighed as he cuddled up to Devan. Getting some sleep had sounded so good to him at that moment. And it was all he'd do. He didn't even get to spend time with Devan though because they were both worn out. However he wasn't going to complain. With a small yawn he kissed Devan's lips and closed his eyes. After that he was fast asleep.

And he did not plan to wake up after that. He wouldn't end up thinking over this too much. He needed to keep on resting at the very least. What was he supposed to do. Sleep had taken over him so face and he'd rather not wake up to take care of the children. It was Devan's turn not his right now. "Come on Devan it's your turn..." He groaned as the kids woke up. He could hear them crying, and he wanted to sleep. So why couldn't Devan take care of the twins for once. Caelan's body was sore from taking care of them and Devan. Simple really, but of course what was he supposed to do about any of this.

He kicked Devan's side and wanted Devan to wake up. Right now it frustrated him knowing he might have to get up and take care of them. When he knew it was Devan's turn.

Devan had made him angry, why the heck was he being such a stubborn butt. He needed to get up already, this was too stupid. The kids were his problem tonight. Well not literally a problem. It was something else entirely. Yet he didn't know what his hubby would say if he got cold water. He tried to kick him shoving Devan towards the edge of the bed. "GET UP!" He growled and shoved him further, hoping he'd fall off of the bed. After all this had annoyed him so much. And he wanted him to get up since the kids were his problem today. For now at least. Yet however he'd rather not deal with it. For a small moment he almost wondered what he was going to say. Would Devan even get his lazy butt out of bed this time? Probably not he was stubborn like that.

"They are crying go make them happy Daddy." He grumbled, Caelan was so worn out. Why couldn't he let him rest? Right now it'd probably not end up helping him. Yet he was wondering what he'd say. He had to figure that Devan would finally decide to get off his butt. And actually do something. But this was Devan he was talking about. For all he knew it probably wouldn't work out as he planned. He wanted to know what Devan would do. And yet it'd probably not end up getting him anywhere. Was Devan waking up? Really he hoped he was. Because Caelan didn't want to deal with the kids yet. Not right now with how exhausted he was.

This was making him angry, he wanted Devan to wake up already. Why the hell was he being so stubborn, it really did make him upset. Or worse. But of course he didn't know what to say. He felt a bit dizzy mostly from being forced to wake up. His body needed to get a lot of rest, after all. Though Caelan had to wonder if Devan would finally wake up. Since he needed to take care of the children. He would not let him get away with it. Caelan was sure of that at the very least. If it was probably not a good idea. For a small moment he thought he might be messing things up. He never had learned to handle things very well, which wasn't his best idea. Having twins was a bit of a problem but he loved it. "Come on just take care of them. I'm tired to you know." He said, though he wasn't trying to complain. At this moment he was way too exhausted to whine much.

"The kids are awake..." He mumbled as he tried to get up from the pillow. But really he was way too tired for this, his body didn't like it. He didn't know what to do either. The children were so cute but he didn't want to deal with them. He'd rather focus on something else. Such as sleep. It would be really good, he wanted to know what he might find if Devan handled the children. He loved to watch them, but maybe tomorrow. Sleep sounded so hard to him with his kids awake and crying. But Devan did say he needed it. Or he'd get sick and they'd all be in trouble. Which was not a good thing. "Good, please take care of them. I don't like our kids crying." He wanted to relax a little bit though it'd probably not work out that way.

He knew he was a bit tired, but no one needed to remember that. Caelan closed his eyes, but he would keep that to himself for now at the very least. He wondered only how far he'd be able to go. "Be careful Devan." He smiled as he yawned, what was he going to do. "I'll try." He sighed lightly and leaned back on the bed. He wanted to rest right now, it sounded really good to him. Though of course he'd leave that alone. He only hoped that Devan would feel at least a little bit better. He did pick up the baby monitor to at least listen, he wanted to make sure the kids were sleeping or at least calm. Caelan was so worried sometimes as stupid as it was.

Caelan only gave a small nod, he was so tired. Even talking to Devan he started to fall asleep again. What was he supposed to do? The boy wondered what he was supposed to be feeling right now. It'd probably not end up helping out very much. But he'd rather not think too much of these things. He was way too tired for this, the children needed constant care. And it took a lot of energy out of Caelan honestly. Though he'd never admit that to people around him. They didn't need to know what he was feeling or thinking. Devan should only be focusing on making the children stop crying. He wanted to know they'd at least start feeling better. But that was also something he should probably stop hoping for. For all he knew he might have to wake up and help Devan. Which was not in his wishes for the next few hours.

He only hoped Devan would be able to handle it. So far he wasn't sure but of course what did he even know. At this moment it was probably not so important. Devan and Caelan were working through this having a happy life thing. Even if his kids cried constantly sometimes. That didn't bother him as much as other things did. However he'd keep that to himself, for now at least. He knew it was all he could do. Even if he didn't like thinking about it. He had to give Devan a chance to handle the kids, he knew if he did it all then Devan wouldn't be happy. It probably made Devan feel a bit worthless. But he'd keep that to himself. Only smiling at the idea of Devan being able to handle the children. This made him feel so much better honestly.

"No you aren't you idiot." He rolled his eyes, why couldn't he sleep now. Devan had the kids but Caelan still found it hard to sleep. His worries as a parent getting the better of him again. Devan was trying but it still concerned Caelan. What if something bad happened? What if someone got hurt. What if, what if and more what if. The what ifs could be so endless with this stuff. That he already knew. However it was probably not that important to even think about right now. He wondered what his babies wanted. It wasn't like Caelan would be able to tell Devan anything. No doubt they might both need diaper changes. Or something along those lines anyway. But he'd let his husband figure it out.

He knew by those words that Milo needed a diaper change. Oh this was going to be good, Caelan had shown Devan how to do it and Devan only got grossed out by it instead. Which wasn't too shocking or bad or anything. It had almost been a good thing. But of course he'd rather keep that to himself. "Potty training...you'll say ewww about that too." He laughed, but he leaned back onto the pillow almost like he was going to sleep. He'd wait until Devan called him if he was needed at all. Right now however he'd rather not push things too far. He wished to give Devan a chance to do things on his own.

Caelan had hoped Devan would be able to do this without his help, but he knew that might not work. He'd probably have to help him, so far he would wait and see where it went. People didn't need to know much of what was going through his head. Not right now as he listened to his husband work. Kids were hard to handle but Devan needed to learn. Just in case something happened. Which he hoped nothing would happen. He didn't want to leave them alone. Not now, not ever. Simple as that really. Honestly he didn't know how well Devan might be able to handle this. But he was still waiting for it. Waiting for some sign that he either got it or he needed help. So far he didn't see either. Which might also be a bit worrying to him. However he'd keep his mouth shut. Just a little longer then he'd notice if Devan needed help or not.

He only rolled his eyes. This didn't bother him. It never would. As far as he was concerned. Devan needed to learn about taking care of them. But this was another matter. Cursing in front of kids was bad if they could hear it. But the kids wouldn't pick it up yet. They weren't old enough for that. Caelan was sure of that. He sat up in the bed and moved to find his slippers. Almost as if he knew that Devan would ask him for help. It wasn't surprising but it wouldn't bother him either. He would go to help him if that was needed. Simple really. "Ugh fine I'm getting up." He huffed and walked into the room, so much for being able to get some sleep. He leaned down to pick up the girl and rock her in his arms. She was crying still, but only a little.

"Having issues changing him?" He asked, though he wasn't being a tease about it. He said it in a straight forward way which might be a little mean. But who cared. Devan needed to learn how to do this, and he was sure he would. No matter what. He might not enjoy it but it was something that had to be done. No matter what it had to be done, and he'd rather not dig into that. "Here just take the diaper off, put a wipe or another diaper over him so he doesn't pee on you." He said as he looked at him, the boy was hard to change but Caelan did it one handed most of the time. As usual.

He took the bottle from the little girl's bed and put it in her mouth. He would try to get her fed, and changed. See if she was hungry or something. He wanted Devan to take care of this child for once. At least for now. What was he supposed to say. He could not change matters, if his husband didn't learn then he'd get frustrated. For now however he kept his mouth shut. Waiting and watching to see what Devan could do.

He didn't say much after all Devan had woken him up. And that on it's own was a bit annoying. He'd rather not dig into this, since it was not likely to do him any good. Honestly he felt that his head might not be working out so well. Not right now anyway. He only rocked the little girl and made sure she was calm before he let his hand fall from her bottle. Yes he knew Devan was trying but at the same time he wondered what Devan would do if he left them alone for a day. Caelan only shrugged. "I tried to sleep, but couldn't...plus you are noisy." He said as he yawned, Caelan really did seem to be so tired. It was obvious all over his body at this point. Even with how he was taking care of the girl. His movements almost seemed to be sluggish in nature. Honestly he didn't like it, but what was he supposed to do. It'd probably not get him anything since he knew Devan needed his help.

"Let's just finish this so they can sleep and so can we." He mumbled as he yawned again, he would rather not deal with these things. It'd probably not end up helping him either. Yet he was not sure what to say, what if he made someone mad? Like Devan or the kids. If he made them cry again. Though Caelan had never actually made them cry. He wasn't good at that. He only shrugged, and kept her close. She would fall asleep again and he'd be on his way, though he checked her diaper while holding her. At least this one was clean and didn't pee or anything. He'd make Devan change her if she was. "Who cares, you need to learn to handle one kid before you handle the next one. Simple as that." He would not deny that. It was a path here, and they both needed to remember that. However he'd rather not think about it.

"I wasn't spying on you...I just wanted to make sure you knew how to handle this. I'm sorry..." He sighed and looked back at the sleeping girl. He knew she'd be able to handle it soon enough. But what was he supposed to do. He didn't know if he'd get angry. Devan knew he probably wanted to keep an eye on him or so on. But no this was not the only thing. He'd rather not upset his husband. It was just the kids were usually his thing, so he had to wonder what they'd do. He knew Devan could learn but it was a task on it's own.

"They seem okay though." He smiled as he spoke this was alright. It seemed alright so far even if he didn't know where this might be going. He knew that Devan was trying his best.

He only looked at Devan then down to the sleeping baby on his chest. The baby didn't plan on waking up now, she'd be asleep for awhile. But he wondered what Devan would do? Devan needed to learn this yes. But Caelan wasn't going to worry too much on it. What good would that do for him. He knew Devan had a point, but that didn't mean he liked remembering that. He wanted to keep Devan from dwelling on it too much. He only sighed lightly and moved to set the baby girl back down in her crib. She would be alright. That he already knew. It was all a matter of making sure she stayed asleep and they got her brother to sleep too. "You'll learn and yes she's a lot like you when it comes to sleeping. She'll sleep the rest of the night I hope." He looked to the other child and held the bottle out to Devan. Just in case he needed it.

"Here try to feed him a little. Maybe he'll sleep soon." Caelan only smiled and leaned against the crib of his sleeping daughter. She was fine, and even him doing this wouldn't wake her up. He was only tired, and sleep was something he truly needed. However he wouldn't tell anyone that. He needed to pretend this wasn't that important. At least for now. "Well one of us has to work...and they don't take lightly to daycare. I don't want you to leave work early just for us. But it'd be nice to have you home with us...I like spending time with you after all." That was what he said as he rubbed the small boy's back a little. He didn't like knowing his kids were upset, it's why they were more important then he was.

"If you want too...I'd hate to force you to do that though. But I bet they'd like you to be here too." He smiled as he spoke though he was really tired. He didn't bother to hide it this time. He couldn't. Since he woke up to wake Devan up instead of sleeping through it this time. "Hah yea right! I'll be fine. Jeez I'm not that weak, I feel perfectly fine." He was tired yes but he had handled worse. And that wouldn't change anytime soon. Not right now. He only looked up at Devan now and hoped that the child had fallen asleep. So at least they could go back to bed too.

He really wanted that.